For a long, long time, I rationalized the bullying I received in high school as being due largely to my speech impediment. I maintain that this couldn't have possibly helped things, but in my research on the potentially feminizing effects of birth control on fetal development, I was reminded of some things I dealt with as a …
Note (8/19/2019): This post is so freaking outdated, but it was important to me learning to accept myself. There's a reason you can't follow the link to the cited blog post.) Nosce te ipsum One implication about writing a journal like this is that you get a front row seat to the ups and …
This blog is another coping mechanism. One which only sort of works sometimes. I've tried as best I can to write honestly, but to write logically. I have laid out things I've done, things I've thought, and experiences I've had. I consider each of these meaningful, and I am pleased with the format so far. …
SPOILERS AHEAD. You have been warned. I wanted to name this "On Tropes," but I have so many categories already, so I am combining this with posts about books, television, movies, etc. Only video games will remain as a standalone media category. Those who fall within sociocultural expectations struggle to understand the importance of representation of …
When I was a kid, it seemed like homosexuals were almost unilaterally despised, because they had been given a choice, and they made the wrong one. This was (and is) a belief less based in science and more based in the fact that it doesn't conflict so strongly with preconceived worldviews. And it is one which …
I have social anxiety. I often hide from others. When my depression is especially bad, I push them away. Or I push myself away. As someone who has sleep paralysis (look it up, or wait for me to talk about it in another post), I have had a few of what are described as "out …
Continue reading "On Authenticity, pt. 2 (and Depression, pt. 4)"
To use an over-cited line from The Matrix, "What is real? If real is what you can feel, smell, taste, and see, then 'real' is simply electrical signals interpreted by your brain." For those of you who haven't watched The Matrix, do yourself a favor and do it. There's a reason people still talk about it 18 years …
As I've said, I'm from a small town in the South. But I've not always lived here. In fact, I just returned after completing a graduate program at a university in the middle of a desert in the Southwest, nearly 2000 miles away. As should be fairly obvious by now, I've been in and out of …
It's really surprising I haven't written more about dreams in this blog yet. Not only are they, as I said before, a coping mechanism for me, but in my life I have not written more on any topic (though this blog is on course to claim that title for itself). My last post on renouncing privilege …
This could well go under "On Depression," but this title is more poetic, and anyway, more applicable. Because of my inner trans self, I am nervous, or afraid, or some combination thereof, pretty much all of the time. I've been documenting some of the reasons as to why that is: here's another. If I come …
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