The lines that accompany the scene in the picture above, for those who aren’t the Tolkien nerd I am.
Sam: “This is it.”
Frodo: “This is what?”
Sam: “If I take one more step, it will be the farthest from home I’ve ever been.”
Hey, even the title of this post is a Lord of the Rings reference!
Several things have happened since my last post. Actually, this is the first time I have started posting again when I’m not necessarily in a dark place. I don’t know if I can say I’m really in a good place, but I’m not having those kinds of thoughts right now. And that is very comforting.
So what happened? I finally came out–to my girlfriend of three years.
What can I say? Nothing too much–this isn’t the place for those sorts of details. But we still have a deep love for one another, and while we are both very scared for the future (for ourselves, for each other, for what it means for “us”), we still have each other.
And so I finally let my secret out to another human being. And I made an appointment to speak with a well-regarded therapist in the area.
Am I sad? Yes. Deeply. I’m even more scared. But for the first time in a long, long time (ever?), I feel like I can kind-of sort-of breathe. I’ll take it.